A Year Without Fear: ME AND MY SHADOW

A Year Without Fear: ME AND MY SHADOW

Confession: Ever since the shadow-man’s nocturnal visit a couple of weeks ago, I’ve been afraid of the dark. Just like old times. It’s a colossal flashback to a pattern I thought I cleared ages ago, and I’m a little bummed out to find myself seemingly back at this same scaredy-cat spot once more. In the last post, I discovered it was necessary to embrace and accept the unseen supernatural world, because it’s an aspect of the self. Because I created…

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A Year Without Fear: WHO YA GONNA CALL?

A Year Without Fear: WHO YA GONNA CALL?

I came into this life with a major chip on my shoulder toward the supernatural. And by ‘supernatural,’ I meant all things unseen, from ghosts and angels to demons and faeries, to chakras, auras, the devil and God. I was blindly terrified by all of it. Wanted nothing whatsoever to do with any of it. Yet it all felt so alarmingly, threateningly close by. So I slammed and locked all possible doors of entry, fingers plugged securely in ears, eyes…

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A Year Without Fear: LOVE IS A THING WITH WINGS, DAMMIT

A Year Without Fear: LOVE IS A THING WITH WINGS, DAMMIT

In my chosen spiritual ocean, I’ve spent many a pruney year dog-paddling in circles around the idea of unconditional love. It’s an authentically healthy love (I’m told), one that offers complete freedom and true healing to all who experience it. And all, apparently, are equally worthy of it. It’s a beautiful theory. And to practice unconditional love feels totally great as an abstract exercise—always performed on my own terms, of course, and only when I’m in the mood for it….

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A Year Without Fear: I AM $600,000. (AND SO ARE YOU.)

A Year Without Fear: I AM $600,000. (AND SO ARE YOU.)

At the end of my previous post, The $600,000 Gatekeeper, I reported that the internal arbiter standing between me and limitless creative expression seemed to have permanently abandoned its mission. Afterward, a friend asked, “So if the gatekeeper is gone, are you now able to feel you deserve $600,000?” I didn’t know. I said I’d get back to him. When I first met the gatekeeper, it showed itself to me as a frightened figure trying singlehandedly to hold back all…

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A Year Without Fear: THE $600,000 GATEKEEPER

A Year Without Fear: THE $600,000 GATEKEEPER

The other day while idly scrolling through my Facebook newsfeed, I saw a Law of Attraction-based posting that said: I’M IN THE MOOD TO RECEIVE $600,000. The idea being, of course, to use the statement as an exercise to get into the suggested feeling state. And then presumably to attract the abundance it asks for. I smiled. I was about to keep scrolling, but then just for fun I tried actually putting myself into the feeling state to receive $600,000….

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A YEAR WITHOUT FEAR

A YEAR WITHOUT FEAR

A 12-MONTH EXPERIMENT THAT ASKS THE QUESTION: IS PAINFUL SELF-LIMITATION NOTHING BUT AN OLD HABIT? (Breakable, like any other habit?) And if a habit of fear can be broken, is it possible to cultivate a habit of joyous liberation instead? I want to spend the next year finding out. •          •          • Like so many people do, I spent decades inside a self-created prison of emotional pain and unworthiness. It was life without parole, and that’s just how I wanted…

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WAKING UP. SMELLING THE COFFEE.

WAKING UP. SMELLING THE COFFEE.

There’s been a lot of talk among God’s students lately about food’s perfect innocence. How it’s neither good nor bad for you, how it doesn’t make you thin or fat, sick or healthy. How (like every other aspect of this 3-D illusion), food is entirely neutral. That I’m the one who gives it all the meaning it has for me. If I say it’s fattening, in other words, then it is. If I say it’ll make me sick—or well—then it…

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Science or God?

Science or God?

Recently, as part of an article about atheism, I was asked the following question by Illuminata Magazine: Q: How do you respond to Richard Dawkins’ brand of ‘informed’ atheism supported by scientific investigation? Or what would you tell somebody who’s confused by all these genetic theories that these gentlemen use to prove what they call the ‘God Delusion’? Frankly, I had to look the guy up. These kinds of arguments hold little interest for me anymore, and this is why:…

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WHEN IS A BACKLASH NOT A BACKLASH?

WHEN IS A BACKLASH NOT A BACKLASH?

Back in the day – say, 5 or 6 years ago – it seemed that every time I got on a spiritual roll, every time I felt big breakthroughs in wisdom, trust, love or peace, I knew this wonderful sense of expansion would come only as the first half of a 2-part cycle: I could expect an inevitable ego crash shortly afterward. You could set your clocks by it; a dreadfully fuzzed-out period of lethargic contraction that would arrive right…

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ENLIGHTENMENT-AHOLIC

ENLIGHTENMENT-AHOLIC

Funny, isn’t it. You’re positively sure you know some fact or other; you understand it completely from your head down to your toes. And then one day the candle of Knowing spontaneously ignites, and whoosh!  It’s made a liar out of you, just like that. The other night I came to know — really know — there’s no point to the goal of attaining future enlightenment. Mind you, I would have said I already knew that chasing a phantom “future…

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